I wish I could say it "ain't so" - but the time has come. Some are happy, some are thrilled, some are in disbelief, but for me, I'm torn up! I am currently holding back the tears as I type!!!
It's official........Jose has been released, by his Dr., to go back to work on the streets.
I have such mixed emotions about this. I'm so HAPPY for Jose, cause he gets to go back to the job that he loves so much. After waiting and thinking that he physically wouldn't ever be able to go back to the streets. And after being so physically and mentally torn down! Here he goes! Some don't understand and will never understand Jose's love for his job. But me, on the other hand, I know and completely understand! I see the glow and sparkle in his eyes as he puts on his uniform. Or even when he's just talking about his job, he gets so gitty - like a child with a new toy! THIS IS WHY I HAVE TO BE HAPPY!!!!!
God has created such special men and women to have jobs of this sort - and through my eyes - they are called Heroes!
I know some of you are reading this and are thinking "Is she CRAZY?!" (for being upset). But none of you will ever know or understand how I feel (unless, maybe my fellow cop wives)! It's not easy being a wife of a cop. I know, I know it could be much worse! He could be going off to fight in the war in another country - for a year at a time. (My hat goes off to those families for sure)! But I Thank God he isn't.....I think my family would have to admit me to a mental institute if he was!
The last 11 months have just been AMAZING! We (as a family) HAVE GROWN SO MUCH!!! Not only with each other, but in God! We have been able to spend SO much time together and do such amazing things! I wouldn't have traded it for the world! In all the years of being married and having a family, Jose has always worked shift work or worked long hours, so he hasn't been with us in every adventure! But to me the last 11 months have really made up for that! WE have been able to go and do whatever we wanted, whenever we wanted, without stopping and having to look at the calendar to see if "Daddy has to work"! IT HAS BEEN A TRUE BLESSING!
Jose not going back to work IS NOT AN OPTION - IT'S LIFE! So I have to get over this and I will. It's just gonna take me a little bit of time to get back into the swing of things without him being there so much! I will be okay! But right now for my friends and family that are reading this: I ask for your Prayers! Not just for me and my strength to get past this, but for our kids strength and understanding (they aren't liking this either), ALSO for Jose and his safety. It's not a safe world out there, so please keep him in your daily prayers - TO BE SAFE ON THE STREETS!
LOVE TO ALL,